Hi. I'm a young guy in university. I'm studying botany and I want to work as an environmental consultant. I saw a counsellor a little while ago and he suggested I see a psychologist for an asssessment.

I probed him on this for a while and he said he suspected that I might have the early stages of psychosis.

I'm really ambitious, I want to be a good politician one day, a genuinely good one. I want to have military experience and I want a good job. I function normally because any aberations or unusual things I might experience are NOT empirically investigable and are no concern to me.

If I can verify the existence of something with someone else, and it maintains it's 'existence' despite looking at it from different angles, trying to measure it or investigate it in a science-ey way, then I know it's real.

I don't know what's going to happen, but if the psychologist thinks I have scitzophrenia or psychosis or what not, I'm guessing that it will fuck up my chances for living out all my dreams in the future right? Or, is my mental history private to employeers, including the government 'or the public' in the case of politics. It would be quite funny to think that one of the few honest politicians in psychotic....

Anyway, I don't hallucinate or anything. I just have fairly disorganised thinking and I'm a bit paranoid. But, I'm aware its all irational and don't act on anything ridiculously. I went and decided to see a professional early on myself.